I Promise......

I wont cry....i promise i wont give up and i promise i will be strong.....
but will i keep these promises?cos usually promises meant to be broken rite......?!
is my happiness last such a short time?or my patience has a limit?
am i tat impatient tat i want everything to be in my way......did i blew it?
i dun remember i hurt him....or say harsh things.....but i guess there is something and someone better than me....
i know tat something is out....so i let him spend time with his new "baby"....cos frm the start i know tat i want to take it slow....real slow....all i can do now is pray and hope someday there is hope for me...at least a little silver lining.....
i dun want to go thru wat i've gone thru before....cos so far i'm with my life rite now...at least i got something to look forward rite now.....my vacation....
he's always in my mind but at least this time i am strong enuff to control my feelings especially my anger and pain....
holding in my tears rite now.....cos i really dun want to waste them now....its no use.....cos it wont change...
I hope u have a good yr ahead.....and if u are happy rite now...i'm happy too....i wish u all the best....i've grown....have u?!

ps:Babe.....I miss u.....ur smile and conversations....and also ur selamberness....